I know I should start off with some intro saying where I’ve been but, the last time I did that, I ended up going MIA for like a month. I know, I need to do better. Just work with me. Lol. I actually have about 6 drafts of posts I started to write but, that motivation wasn’t there anymore. So, I’m just going to jump into this post like I wasn’t gone for twenty-leven days.
This last month I’ve been depressed. Not suicidal depression but, “down, can’t get these dark clouds from over me” depression. I think it’s important to say not suicidal because people automatically associate suicide with depression and that’s not always the case.
Continue reading “I Want To Clear The Clouds”
Back in September, I wrote a post for Suicide Awareness Month. With May being Mental Health Awareness Month, I think this is a great opportunity to repost it for those who haven’t had the chance to read it.
September 15th, 2017: We Really Need To Talk About This.
Please know you are not alone. Many battle mental health issues and even though it may be difficult to talk about, talking makes it easier.
If you need help, please reach out to someone you trust and check out my Resources page.
Also, anyone who knows me personally knows how often I tell people that no matter our relationship, no matter how long it’s been, I’m always available and willing to listen. I extend this to my followers as well. Talking builds a healthy relationship with yourself and those around you. I am not a professional but, if you ever need someone to talk to or just listen, I’m here for you. You can send me an email at email@example.com. Everything will remain private unless I feel you or those around you are in potential danger.
I’ve never always had a green thumb. I remember in middle school I was supposed to see how different light sources affected the growth of plants. I had everything setup; the same type of pots, the same type and number of seeds, the same amount of soil, and I watered the seeds with the same amount of water from the same source. Let’s just say the fact that I was creative saved me because the actual experiment yielded zero results. Nothing grew. Out of six pots that each had two seeds, not one grew. Even though I had nothing to present, my poster and written study gave me an A for that project.
Fast forward to today. I have about 20 or so plants growing in my apartment. I don’t know what it is about plants but, I love taking care of them. My dream house includes have a yard big enough to grow vegetables, herbs, and fruits in the back and flowers in the front. But, until then, I’m working with the small that I have in my barely 1000 sqft apartment.
Now, out of my 20 or so plants, there was a lily I bought 2 years ago. I kept the lily on my balcony and it flourished beautifully. As the hot months started to turn cold, the lily died. I wanted to try and save it so, I brought it inside and attempted to nurture it back to health. Throughout the 2 years I watched the lily sprout new plants but, it could never fully bloom to a flower.
Continue reading ““People are like plants, they grow towards the light””